A Tough Day

As I sit here trying to clear my mind for bed- I can’t get this sweet face off of my mind. She begged me not to take her to dialysis today 😞. She sat in the car beside me and asked me why she doesn’t have a kidney. She told me, “I really want a kidney because I don’t want to die and dialysis makes me sad with too many needles in me. I want to be able to hang out at home- not in a chair at dialysis!” 💔. I usually try hard to stay positive and be thankful for our many blessings (and I am so thankful) but today made me sad and angry that she has to deal with so much. It is devastating to know her fears are very real and legit and that I can’t make it better. Mary Ashley rarely ever complains, and typically smiles through all she endures, but I suppose it was just a bad day for us both. My sweet Allison stayed at dialysis with her today to help cheer her up 😍. I will never give up Mary Ashley! #whenMommacantfixit #prayingforamatch #tomorrowisanewday