A Tough Day
As I sit here trying to clear my mind for bed- I can’t get this sweet face off of my mind. She begged me not to take her to dialysis today 😞. She sat in the car beside me and asked me why she doesn’t have a kidney. She told me, “I really want a kidney because I don’t want to die and dialysis makes me sad with too many needles in me. I want to be able to hang out at home- not in a chair at dialysis!” 💔. I usually try hard to stay positive and be thankful for our many blessings (and I am so thankful) but today made me sad and angry that she has to deal with so much. It is devastating to know her fears are very real and legit and that I can’t make it better. Mary Ashley rarely ever complains, and typically smiles through all she endures, but I suppose it was just a bad day for us both. My sweet Allison stayed at dialysis with her today to help cheer her up 😍. I will never give up Mary Ashley! #whenMommacantfixit #prayingforamatch #tomorrowisanewday
Chip Barbot, thanks so much for the post.Really thank you! Keep writing.
Have you looked into home therapy? Home hemo or PD? So at least you angel wouldn’t have to go to the clinic and maybe be a little easier on her body? Also a “kidney swap” website. I hope she’s on the transplant site every where within a 3 hr. Radius(SC, GA, FL, NC).
Blessings & good luck.